Starting all over again

Oops I did it again.............

I took a little break which lead to a massive break, which lead to me getting massive.

So now here I join the rest of the new year new me bullshitters!!

I am so lazy, overweight  and unfit now, starting all over again is horrible! Everytime I do this I swear that I will never do it again!

I didn't even start on January 1st!! Everyday I had an excuse!

I did a little bit this week and cut down on the calories. Officially starting on Monday. (Everyone knows you can't start any other day only a Monday)

MIDWEEK MOTIVATION

Positive Thinking

I am a negative person. This doesn't help when I am training for a fight. My own negativity is killing my ability to progress. I stopped training for two months, and when I went back and I expected myself to be where I left off and I wasn't. Everyone else kept training. So my own head races as I'm training with negative thoughts.

"Everyone is better than me."

"I'm shit."

"I'm like a beginner."

"I can't do anything right."

"I shouldn't of gotten caught with that."

These thoughts stay with me for the walk home, weighing me down, and they are in my head as I try to sleep.

I get the pep talk from my boyfriend on how I need to stop being negative and start being positive. It's all in my head. I agree until next time and as soon as I start doing things wrong or feel like I'm being beat up by anyone it all comes back and I feel too disheartened to try.

I've been searching online for articles about positive thinking. I'm trying to make myself believe in myself. So far this is what I've gathered.....

Did I eat well today? Did I run before training? Did I train hard enough? Did I do core work? Did I go to bed early? If I'm answering yes then I should go forward believing in my own abilities. There's no point in worrying about what my opponent can do, it only matters what I can do. If I am happy with my own training then that should give me all the confidence I need.

I'm also trying to take a leaf out of Conor McGregor's book and be half as confident as he is. I'm trying to use some of his phrases as my mantra. "We're not here to take part, we're here to take over." That's one of my favorite ones. I love that fighting Irish spirit.

FAIL TO PREPARE - PREPARE TO FAIL

And in this case I'm talking about preparing food for work! I get home late from training, I got to get up at 6am for work but I still will get together the days grub for work. One of the best things is filling up a little container with a selection of fruit and veg to keep handy in the fridge at work in case you feel hungry. This one is carrot sticks, blueberries, strawberries and grapes.  I also use celery sticks, peppers and melon. Whatever I have at home to chop up or throw in. If I didn't have this then I would be off to the local shop and there aren't any healthy choices in there!

When my boyfriend says one more round......

Tired much?

So this week I turned it up a notch which is something I should have done about two weeks ago!! I went for a run every weekday before training and when I say run I mean jog as I am no Usain Bolt. It was about 6k every night. I even skipped training on the Wednesday night and just did the jog and every single night I was fit to collapse when I got home.

Guess what I GAINED WEIGHT!! I feel thinner and I should be at least the same weight if anything but I somehow managed to gain weight. I was ready to kick the weighing scales off the balcony this morning!!! But I couldn't because my legs are so stiff and tired :-)

I'm sorry for what I said when I was hungry

I spotted this top in downtown today!!! It is so me!! I am not the happiest person to be around when I am hungry!!!

Excuses

FIGHT LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER LOST AND TRAIN LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER WON - iman barlow

The Grind

I have another goal! Completing the Grouse Grind in an hour!

The Grouse Grind is known as mother natures stairmaster. 3k up Grouse mountain and gaining 2,800 feet in elevation!

When I first tried it two years ago I felt like I was going to die and I spend the time bitching and moaning and resting! I never expected it to be so difficult. I thought I was fit!

This year I decided to tackle it again. 6 weeks ago I'm ashamed to say it took me an hour and a half to get to the top but now from going up the Grind or a similar trail nearby it once a week I am after shaving some time off that. 1hour and 9minutes! Still slow to some people but to me it means a lot!

Once I start it I get that same feeling I do before the start of a fight "Why the hell am I doing this?" But in a fight it instantly goes away when the fight starts. In this case it goes away when you are almost at the top. I end up looking like a sweaty Betty but I get rewarded with an amazing view.

I find it's after improving my fitness for longer hikes and my legs are a bit firmer. It feels good to enjoy something other that Muay Thai!

Mid-week Motivation

All Kale the Queen

So Kale is the Queen of Greens, amazing super food, kale chips, kale this kale that bla bla bla
Its high in fibre, low in calories, has zero fat, packed with antioxidents, high in iron, contains more Vitamin C than an orange and the list goes on!

Kale salad.

For the past 3 weeks now that's what I have been eating for my lunch in work Monday-Friday. It was a bit boring at first but now I'm so used to it I don't even want to change up my lunch. It's tough though when you can smell the beautiful aromas of other peoples deadly lunches. I even said no to free donuts.

Eat me!! I'm free!!

I sit across from 2 men who are eating machines. They have selections of munchies at their fingertips all day long. It's so hard trying to ignore what they are eating!! I got to think thin!!!

Mantra: Nothing is as good as skinny feels!!

Mantra: Don't give up what you want the most for what you want right now!

Mantra: A moment on the lips is lifetime on the hips

When the coach tells you that you have good technique

Outdoor Activities

I haven't got stuck into Muay Thai as much as I planned to. Summer in Vancouver is like a summer in Spain to an Irish person. Loving the sun and the seawall! It's easy to jog, walk, cycle, rollerblade or skateboard around Stanley park and the beaches in safety and enjoy the picture perfect scenery!

To see people out exercising here all the time is normal. There were times at home in Ireland when I was out running and people (scumbags) shout things at you from cars.

People in Vancouver don't let things like babies get in the way of their running. Mothers and fathers jog with their buggies. I even see mommy and baby bootcamp classes in the parks.  People here even jog and cycle with their dogs.

On the beaches people are playing volleyball and in the parks people are kicking balls around and playing frisbee. People are playing tennis and basketball in the courts all within Stanley park. We are even getting into the swing of things ourselves and have strolled down to knock a ball or a frisbee around. We own tennis rackets too but that's a bit harder to be able to grab a court but we try. Last week we got on the bikes and cycled around the seawall.

It's refreshing to be living somewhere like this and it can only help motivate me to get off my own arse and join the fit Vancouverites!

Eating Salads for Lunch

Running..............

When your partner asks you to do some light sparring but trys to knock you out

Monday Motivation

My reaction to the new guy who starts giving everyone pointers like he is Buakaw or something

Being asked to hold pads for the coach so he can demo the combination to the class