Positive Thinking

I am a negative person. This doesn't help when I am training for a fight. My own negativity is killing my ability to progress. I stopped training for two months, and when I went back and I expected myself to be where I left off and I wasn't. Everyone else kept training. So my own head races as I'm training with negative thoughts.

"Everyone is better than me."

"I'm shit."

"I'm like a beginner."

"I can't do anything right."

"I shouldn't of gotten caught with that."

These thoughts stay with me for the walk home, weighing me down, and they are in my head as I try to sleep.

I get the pep talk from my boyfriend on how I need to stop being negative and start being positive. It's all in my head. I agree until next time and as soon as I start doing things wrong or feel like I'm being beat up by anyone it all comes back and I feel too disheartened to try.

I've been searching online for articles about positive thinking. I'm trying to make myself believe in myself. So far this is what I've gathered.....

Did I eat well today? Did I run before training? Did I train hard enough? Did I do core work? Did I go to bed early? If I'm answering yes then I should go forward believing in my own abilities. There's no point in worrying about what my opponent can do, it only matters what I can do. If I am happy with my own training then that should give me all the confidence I need.

I'm also trying to take a leaf out of Conor McGregor's book and be half as confident as he is. I'm trying to use some of his phrases as my mantra. "We're not here to take part, we're here to take over." That's one of my favorite ones. I love that fighting Irish spirit.

FAIL TO PREPARE - PREPARE TO FAIL

And in this case I'm talking about preparing food for work! I get home late from training, I got to get up at 6am for work but I still will get together the days grub for work. One of the best things is filling up a little container with a selection of fruit and veg to keep handy in the fridge at work in case you feel hungry. This one is carrot sticks, blueberries, strawberries and grapes.  I also use celery sticks, peppers and melon. Whatever I have at home to chop up or throw in. If I didn't have this then I would be off to the local shop and there aren't any healthy choices in there!

When my boyfriend says one more round......

Tired much?

So this week I turned it up a notch which is something I should have done about two weeks ago!! I went for a run every weekday before training and when I say run I mean jog as I am no Usain Bolt. It was about 6k every night. I even skipped training on the Wednesday night and just did the jog and every single night I was fit to collapse when I got home.

Guess what I GAINED WEIGHT!! I feel thinner and I should be at least the same weight if anything but I somehow managed to gain weight. I was ready to kick the weighing scales off the balcony this morning!!! But I couldn't because my legs are so stiff and tired :-)

I'm sorry for what I said when I was hungry

I spotted this top in downtown today!!! It is so me!! I am not the happiest person to be around when I am hungry!!!

Excuses

FIGHT LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER LOST AND TRAIN LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER WON - iman barlow